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I'm sorry.

Journal Entry: Sun Nov 15, 2009, 4:19 PM



First off, this really only applies to one person, but I know it affects many.

I broke someone's heart the other day. I can't live like this. It doesn't feel right anymore. I'm not good enough. I'm ready for this life of mine to end, but each morning I wake up. He needs someone much better than me. He needs someone who is there, someone who is better than I.

I don't know what to do. I still have feelings for him, but I know it's not right anymore. I have this feeling, this knowing that is it not right between us, yet it still hurts. He will forever blame me. But I understand. I deserve much worse than anything that can be said or done. I'm just not worth it.

I sit here wondering if I would survive if I jumped out of my window or how badly it would hurt if I lived. I won't jump. Don't freak out, but I wonder.

I'm not good enough, I never will be. I fail, at everything possible.

I'm sorry he ever had to meet me, or put up with me. I'm sorry to everyone who ever met me.

I won't ask for forgiveness because I know I don't deserve it.

I'm sorry again. Sorry you put up with me. Sorry you met me. Sorry for everything...





"Let Me Go" by 3 Doors Down

One more kiss could be the best thing
But one more lie could be the worst
And all these thoughts are never resting
And you're not something I deserve

In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me

[Chorus]
You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go
Let me go

I dream ahead to what I hope for
And I turn my back on loving you
How can this love be a good thing
When I know what I'm goin through

In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me

[Chorus]
You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
You love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go
Just Let me go...
Let me go

And no matter how hard I try
I can't escape these things inside I know
I knowww..
When all the pieces fall apart
You will be the only one who knows
Who knows

[Chorus]
You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know Who I am
So let me go
Just let me go

And you love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't know who I am
And you love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't know me

Graphics by *aishwaryakhan
CSS by =moonfreak
  • Mood: Love
  • Listening to: Let Me Go (3 Doors Down)
  • Reading: New Moon
  • Eating: GUM
  • Drinking: V8

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:iconartemis01nenefan:
do you like wolves?

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:heart: you are my mobile blood supply :heart:

:floating: heaven doesn't want me and hell's too afraid i'll take over :devilish:

98% of teens would be dead if Twilight said breathing wasn't cool. Post this if you are apart of the 2% laughing.
:iconwhitewolfangel:
what a rather random question...

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A voice calls to me. It says, "Search, for Paradise."
There’s nothing unnatural about dying or being killed. It’s better than living with no purpose. ~Kiba, Wolf's Rain
:iconartemis01nenefan:
i suppose, but the title made me think of my own love for wolves, the white wolf in particular...

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:heart: you are my mobile blood supply :heart:

:floating: heaven doesn't want me and hell's too afraid i'll take over :devilish:

98% of teens would be dead if Twilight said breathing wasn't cool. Post this if you are apart of the 2% laughing.
:iconwhitewolfangel:
Heehee, well I made it up from Wolf's Rain, the main character being a white wolf. lol. So I suppose the answer should be yes, I do like wolves, lol.

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A voice calls to me. It says, "Search, for Paradise."
There’s nothing unnatural about dying or being killed. It’s better than living with no purpose. ~Kiba, Wolf's Rain
:iconartemis01nenefan:
lol well i'm glad-we who support wolves need help.

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:heart: you are my mobile blood supply :heart:

:floating: heaven doesn't want me and hell's too afraid i'll take over :devilish:

98% of teens would be dead if Twilight said breathing wasn't cool. Post this if you are apart of the 2% laughing.
:iconshadowange1:
8D OMG hi! I'm Ilias's cousin! Michi/Kala.

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"To young to live a lie
Look into my eyes...~"

-Tokio Hotel
"Ready, Set, Go!"
:iconwhitewolfangel:
8D! Hello!!

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A voice calls to me. It says, "Search, for Paradise."
There’s nothing unnatural about dying or being killed. It’s better than living with no purpose. ~Kiba, Wolf's Rain
:iconshadowange1:
8D What's up?
and thanks so much for the watch. x3
I'mma watch you too if it's ok. =3
I wanna be friends! x3

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"To young to live a lie
Look into my eyes...~"

-Tokio Hotel
"Ready, Set, Go!"
:iconwhitewolfangel:
Teehee, busy with finals )=.
Of course I'd watched you (sounds stalkerish o.o) plus you have awesome art work, I'm super jealous!
And yay! Lets be friends!! x3

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A voice calls to me. It says, "Search, for Paradise."
There’s nothing unnatural about dying or being killed. It’s better than living with no purpose. ~Kiba, Wolf's Rain
:iconshadowange1:
8D YAY! I like making new friend.s :3
And thank you x///3
Your is so cute. XD
Lol I liked how you colored your last deviation. I can't color worth crap. |D

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"To young to live a lie
Look into my eyes...~"

-Tokio Hotel
"Ready, Set, Go!"

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